incredible friend...

i have this terrific friend named amy... i am thankful for her on a very regular basis... i didn't really sleep too well last night, and i'm fighting off some sicknesses (needing to go to the doctor, but not wanting to...) and i slept in really late today... but when i finally got up, the mail had already come and i had a card from my cool friend amy... and it made me really happy... i had a pretty rough week last week, and she sent me a really funny card...

the problem is... amy lives a million miles away... okay maybe not a million... it is exactly (from my house to her house) 2353.82 miles - roughly 35 hours and 27 minutes driving time, according to mapquest.com... that is a long way... so i pretty much don't get to see her ever... it's been about a million years... or a little over a year... (is that right amy? last august?) anyway, she is probably the best friend i've ever had... and i miss her a lot!!!

okay, i'll stop talking about it and move on to something else... inspired by friends (mostly amy) i have decided to go see garden state tonight... i love going to the movies and don't really have a lot of people who will go with me... so i'll probably end up going by myself... and as long as i make it off work by 10:00 (which is not definite), then i'm heading to see it downtown...

today i am struck with the incredible-ness of God... i am amazed at Him - and how He works things out so perfectly... in my present state of nomadity and unsure-ness about the future, i am really okay with stuff... i know that my Daddy has it all under control... and that's a cool thing... and honestly, the thing i'm most struggling with lately is lonliness... i don't completely understand this, but i'll approach it... i live in a house with 8 other people... and 3 dogs... there are always people around me... always... it's crazy fun and i love it, but even in the midst of being surrounded by people, i still feel lonliness a lot... and i think that comes from lack of intimate friendships... relationships... why should i feel alone? and... why do i? i have a Daddy and Friend who is always there... why don't i turn to Him all the time - especially with my lonliness? i guess in my mind, it's not the same...

i heard a sermon... maybe it was something in one of my classes... anyway, this wasn't the main point of it - but whoever was speaking said something about paul's statement, "i wish all men were as i am..." and how that is assumed that it is talking about paul's singleness... and then, whoever it was that was talking, went on to say that it was more likely to have implied - with a partner... even though paul was single, he wasn't alone in his ministry... he always had people with him on his journeys... so right now, i am kind of feeling the struggle of feeling alone in ministry... but there are some things to consider...

1) i don't have a "ministry" currently... i am in the process of looking for a new church where i can be involved in youth ministry (hopefully) or at least feel like i am able to be used...
2) i have a vision for a youth/community/sports outreach... high five ministries... i don't feel like i'm supposed to do this alone... and right now everything is still in drawing stages... there are no plans, no concretes, just ideas and hopes in my head... where is that going? not sure...
3) am i supposed to stay in vancouver? even though i'm okay where i am and am not worried about it... i just don't know if this is where i'm supposed to stay...

this post is long enough for now... i want to go off on a tangent about movie quotes, but i'm restraining, based on the fact that i have to be at work in an hour... and i need to get home and get ready for work...

here's the movie quote for the day... worth 500 points to the first correct answer... eventually, i'll give the tally and post the other quotes with no answers yet...

"What came first, the music or the misery? People worry about kids playing with guns, or watching violent videos, that some sort of culture of violence will take them over. Nobody worries about kids listening to thousands, literally thousands of songs about heartbreak, rejection, pain, misery and loss. Did I listen to pop music because I was miserable? Or was I miserable because I listened to pop music? "